Relationship going Nutts A~gain...? Advice..?

If you already didnt trust the one you love due to past issues that they created in your relationships past,but yet they were trying to build it back up w/you & every time you almost reach that point You get*!#%%over again. &over the most stupiest yet hurtful things to.But u always are so forgving no matter how mad you got@them cuz you love them.Yet suspiscions are alwys there &to you,until that TRUSTis reached you find yrself alwys looking & trying to I guess in some way protect yourself from harm again?So,say that just becuz u had to know whether to let go or stay w/the one u love so much that you needed to keep like asecret journal/logbook of what that person did,worked,time home,ect for weeks on end.Then about 3 weeks you get a few of his paystubs&alot of his hrs&your log hours dont jive?Esp.this1 partculr day u guys had already fought about that thy did not go 2 wrk tht day&they swore thy did but the loged hours say NOT!He then tries to blame his work alwys *!@# his hrs up~ADVICE?