Is there anyone out there can help me ?

I never knew times would be so hard that I can not give to my family a chrismas dinner and gifts. Iam a singal mother of three girls my oldest 23,twins 19 years old also two grand kid 1&3 years old. Boy 1,girl 3 they are the joy of my life.iam 42years old been on isant since I was 19yrs.old I work jobs off and on I been out of work for 3yrs.helpin with my grandkid so my oldest can work. She been out of work for 1half now. Twins in school.we get food stamps but not as much as befor. They tolk my oldest off cause she have her kids. My oldest was goin to buy the food this year but,she lost her food stamp card. I ask family&frinds to help they said they have to do for they family for Chrismas I understand I don't have a car. My oldest truck broke down. I call food pantry if they deliver food to help us they do not in my city. I get 36 dollars a month to help with my utitile I on pip 10 dollars is my bills I pay gas & elec. No water thank God we just move in a apartment I on Sec8 houseing I tellin you this because this is my life and I am tellin the truth. There Father have not been in our life becaus when my oldest trun 3yrs old he start beatin me. I left him when she turn 5yrs old. l file chidsupport in 1992 do you know he just went to jail last year for chidsupport & he still is not paying they are 23 & 19yrs old now. I been hangin in there it bee hard. I lost my mother in 1995 & father in 2003 I have 1 bother & 1 sister they older then me since they p they stop dealing with me & my childern now I have grandkids they do not care you know I heard about how family can brake apart when loves p away. I didn't believe it til I start gone though it. I pray so hard that someone read my story and do not judge me for what ever reason but help me. I don't know you readin my story you know me now. Thank you for hearing me and crying with me. This was hard for me because I alway held so much in for years. My God bless you & your family...